Sorry

“I love you more than you’ll ever know. I’m sorry”.

This is probably the most painful feeling a person could ever had, the feeling of being set aside by the one you love. I’m just too tired or maybe too numb to feel love in my heart again. The thing is I’m sick of this kind of situation where I’m always waiting for someone. I want to tell you my love story, and the lessons you must learn for you not to do the same thing I did.

I work at an elisa kits company where I met this sweet and charming guy that loves to write sonnets. He loves to say “I’m sorry”, so I call him the “Sorry guy”. It all started in a simple chat during one of out many lunches together. As our lunch dates became often, we became closer and closer to each other.

After a few months, I fell in love with him. I confessed to him that I loved him, but the sad part is he has a girlfriend and he’s trying not to fall for me because he is faithful to his girl. I don’t wanna ruin his relationship with his girl, but I love him more than he’ll ever know. I’m still aching from the pain my love for him has brought. It seems that time has stopped for me altogether and my heart is not willing to move on.

But now, I realized that no matter what you do, when fate decides that you’re not going to be together, you can’t do anything about it. You just have to stand the pain in order for the person you love to be happy. I guess we’re really not meant to be. I’m willing to accept all the pain this experience brought me as long as he’s happy.

Winter blows...

“I love you without knowing how or why I loved you. “

These were the last lines my boyfriend said to me when we parted ways. It hurt when he said that, but I guess this is what’s best for both of us.

It all started back in college; I had a fresh break-up with my boyfriend back then. I was broken and depressed. I didn’t eat and sleep for a few days. It was only later when found out that he has a new girl, and what hurts the most is when my friend told me she saw my ex boyfriend buying an elisa kits from a certain manufacturer of elisa test kits at a nearby drugstore. There was only one thought that run through my mind at that moment: the girl is pregnant! It felt like my world came crashing down. He was my first guy and I give everything to him without hesitation. I thought he was the one. I thought he loved me

Days passed and at last I was able to move on with my life. I met this guy in an online chat, and found him very sweet. I mean, he is a sweet talker, but he’s also a hopeless romantic guy. And like me, he was also depressed for two years with his past relationship.

We started to chat for at least two to three hours a day. As time goes by, we exchanged phone numbers, until we were already so hooked up with each other. Then there was the confession, he said that he’s already in love with me.

At that time, many things run through my mind. Is he for real? Will he break my heart like what my ex did? Every day, he would say and do sweet things to me, until I realized I was also in love with him. We became lovers; we fill our emptiness together. We’re both not perfect, but it was that imperfection that completed us. He never misses a day without making me smile with his jokes; He always writes sweet poems and quotes about how he loves me. We had a lot of fun together, spending every free time we have together, especially when we were feeling alone.

Until one day, I lost my feelings for him and began to miss my ex boyfriend again. He felt that something was wrong with me. I became cold and indifferent to him. I can’t do anything. I don’t want to hurt him, so I broke up with him. Until now, I’m not sure on what I feel about him. We’ve suddenly become like dead stars at the end of the line. I know I was unfair to him after what we’ve been through. I can still remember the way he wipes my tears saying he’ll always be at my side...Maybe one day I will fall in love with him again and when that time comes I will gave all my love to him.